Lately, I’ve felt disconnected with God. Not like prodigal child disconnected. Just distant. I think I’ve stuck my head into the sand of busyness lately and been preoccupied with all the things I just have to get done. It’s been far too easy to opt to accomplish one more thing rather than to stop and be with God.
It’s ironic, really. The one thing that would fuel me, I don’t think I have time for. Partly, my personality interfers – I like to get things done. But I think it’s more than that.
At least for myself, I find fear often drives my excuses not to spend time with God.
Fear of not getting things done (I may disappoint a lot of people.)
Fear of what God will ask me to do. (He might ask me to give up something.)
Fear of what I will have to suffer. (It might be uncomfortable or painful.)
Fear of missing out. (I may have to say no to something I really want to do.)
Even as I write this, one thing stands out – “I”. All of these fears are very selfish. Putting me as more important than God.
But even Christ was willing to lay down his own will for that of the Father.
Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death— even death on a cross! Philippians 2: 5-8
When we are willing to lay it all down, He often gives us our life back (look at Abraham and Isaac), other times He asks for our all (look at the martyrs). But either way, shouldn’t I be willing to give up what I think is essential to my life and seek Him first?
Laying down my fears and the selfishness that drives them is easier said than done – that’s for sure. But I am going to put God back in my morning. I’m pretty empty without Him otherwise. And hopefully as we go along together, He will teach me how to live more completely in his will – not in my own!
What about you?
What keeps you from spending time with God?
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